08 November 2009

Do You Believe In Magick?

Magick...not magic. Magick is the realm of witches and may include healing, the harnessing of psychic forces, and even divination. "Performing magick makes you feel good. It's a healthy form of self expression because the magick in witchcraft comes from the power that is already within you."

The most powerful change that a person can make is change from within.

As I begin my research on the religion, my original reasons for choosing Wicca have been reaffirmed.
Witches use natural energies to enhance their lives and to heal and protect themselves, their loved ones, and the Earth.

Wiccan witches try to live in harmony with Nature and take responsibility for the environment.
In The Complete Idiot's Guide to Wicca and Witchcraft, Second Edition, the first book I've opened out of a recent haul from a trip to Ukazoo books, and from which the above quotes are pulled, witchcraft is explained in a way that anyone can understand. It also corrects old misconceptions as it shows how simple and pure the theology of Wicca actually is.
Wiccans believe they must act for the good of all, including themselves.
It's reassuring to read some of the book's suggestions with regards to negative circumstances in your life, which relates directly to my recent past. If something bad happens, you are to ask yourself, " What am I supposed to learn from this?" Everything happens for a reason, I suppose. But also, in a list of basic principles written in the 1970s, the Council of American Witches (no longer in existence) said, "We are concerned with our present and future." The authors of the book later follow with "So look ahead and avoid dwelling on the past." Advice that I've always had trouble taking to heart, no matter how much I wish I would. I only hope that through my study and experiences of Wicca traditions, I will one day reach my goal of living entirely in the present and not at all in the past. Rather than worry about what once was, as a Wicca, I can enjoy the little things in life and learn what it means to be on this Earth and to be a part of life on Earth.

The only time a Wiccan must think about the past is when karma comes around. Karma is just a lesson, and it will force us to think about our past actions and learn not to make the same mistake again. The negativity of karma may not come back at you right away, but it will come back. Obviously, karma is meant to prevent harmful behavior. And the Wiccan Rede is a principle central to Wiccan belief that Wiccans live by.
An it harm none, do what ye will.

It basically sums up the ten commandments in one phrase. In whatever you decide, choose what will cause the least harm. Pretty powerful, huh?

In the second chapter, I learned a little bit about the history and influences of witchcraft. One group which I'm particularly interested it, be it my Irish background or the fact that I used to play as this class in video games, are the Druids. The Druids expanded on the ancient Shaman's practice by refining their knowledge and putting it to practice. Like other pagan religions, the Druids suffered religious persecution and their population dwindled. Though it wasn't explained too elaborately in the book, I plan to look into Druids more.

As I conclude my studies for the week, I'll recite and post a rhyme meant to increase tolerance in myself and in people around me:

We should learn from the Earth's
Most patient teachers
That religious tolerance
Be one of our features.
In all human hearts,
Have this light shine.
Let us all welcome it
Through spirit, body, and mind.
Water it and nurture it.
Let it continue to grow.
So suffering and loneliness
No longer will know.
For what you sent out
Returns to thee times three.
This is my will.
So mote it be.

05 November 2009

Let The Games Begin!

So why, you ask, do I want to sample all these different religions? Well, I am a spiritual person, and what to be a child of religion, but in the broadest sense possible. I want to know the beliefs that shape the people around me, and understand life so that I might make better choices. I also have Catholicism to thank, because had I not been frustrated with it, I wouldn't have felt the need to explore other options.

Though I cannot blame the entire religion for the corrupt behavior of some of its clergy, I am disappointed in the Catholic church nonetheless. Furthermore, I can not agree with some of its teachings. My brother is gay, I am pro choice (even if I would never get an abortion myself, I would never tell another living and capable woman what she can and cannot do), and call me Doubting Thomas, but I'm not so sure Jesus did all those things the Bible says he did.

Hence, the sampling shall commence. I will begin with Neopaganism. Though that is just one term describing a wide variety of movements, perhaps it would be easier than breaking down into all the different denominations. For example, I'm interested in Wicca, but not so much in the sexual intercourse initiation rite....eh, it's not for me. I'm drawn to Paganism because of my interest in nature. Yes, it's more than just witchcraft (though I'm kind of excited to learn about spells. Alas, that most likely only comes after that sex thing I mentioned.....). I've made a few new contacts so far, and will be exploring them further this weekend.

We're off!

03 November 2009

"I Am Still Learning"

-Leonardo DaVinci

How can I know what I am if I don't know everything I can be? I'm talking about religion. I was raised Roman Catholic in a family with somewhat of a religious background. My dad was very close to becoming a priest while my father's aunt, Sister Mary Ellen, was a nun at a nearby Basilica. My grandfather would read passages at the church I attended, and two close family friends are priests. I received communion, but was never confirmed. Recently, I've began to deviate from Catholicism. I am not Atheist as I believe in higher beings and spirits; nor am I truly Agnostic, because I know (for the most part) what it is I believe in. But I simply can't be sure that I agree with all aspects of any dogma unless, of course, I claim to be of my own religion, believing in my own set of beliefs. For the last few years, I've done just that, claiming to follow my own religion particular to my life and that of no one else. I cannot pretend there haven't been times in the last few years when I wished I could have turned to a religion. I used to mock religion for being a panacea to all peoples' problems, but then I hit the lowest point in my life, and I had no God to talk to. My makeshift belief system had no scripture to give me hope. When I needed it the most, I ridiculed others who swore by religion. But with good reason, I might add, for the most misguided and dishonest beings were the ones I knew to glorify their religious beliefs. People like those turned me off of organized religion.

But there's so much I don't know about life, and even less I know about faith. I am extremely spiritual, I just don't know how to apply my passion. In an attempt to feel a stronger connection to my life and the life around me, I plan to spend the next years belonging to a different religion each year. Maybe I will learn something about myself in the process.

01 November 2009

Halloween!

Free Burrito Day at Chipotle!

My friend and i sat in my car, looking at each other wrapped in tin foil...


"are we really going to walk into Chipotle like this? what if no one else is doing it? what if our pitiful attempt isn't good enough? we look more like robots than burritos...will they still give us one? will we walk away in shame? ho...w embarrassing will this be on a scale of 1-10?"


Sigh, this is the first time I've hung out with this girl alone, and this will surely be the last.

As we walk across the parking lot, I spot a shiny man from afar. We aren't the only ones! I wave in excitement. Braced for strange looks, we walk in the door, only to find dozens of human burritos. Wearing tin foil sombreros and tin foil eye patches, one donning a tin foil mohawk. And a metallic army follows behind us! Chipotle never tasted so delicious.


And
as I fount out last night, wearing tin foil makes you incredibly hot. useful knowledge for when the world freezes over.

21 October 2009

Pretty


http://nightwoodny.com/gallery.html

20 October 2009

Rendering Styles

digital paint...photo montage...digital composite...montage technique....whatever you want to call the mixing of photographs, computer models, and other digital imagery to create a cohesive rendering of space. The ones that impress me are those that I at first perceive as a hand rendering, but upon closer investigation, discover it has all been done on the computer. The only thing is, I don't know HOW it was done! For clues and inspiration, I've been looking online to see how others have tackled mixed renderings.


JPRA is a firm Seth used as an example. It looks as though everything is watercolor except the people. Curious...


A SketchUP model was created as a base, and a digital paint and montage technique was used to create the renderings.
CJ Schafer Illustration


Specialize in watercolor and hand-digital hybrids
Art & Design Studios


Clearly mixes sketchup with photos
Brent Chamberlain & Associates

18 October 2009

Catastrophe Keeps Us Together

I don't understand why the color doesn't read right unless it's in photoshop or printed!!! Anyway, we gave Kyle his awesome katana/umbrella. Good thing it was raining on his birthday :)

14 October 2009

The Digital Age

Today, it was unfortunately brought to my attention that the interwebz that I love so much must have a detrimental impact on this planet that I love so much more. All its data-facebook albums, notes & videos; free emails; wikipedia; even this blog, to which I add more and more data each day- needs to be stored somewhere. And no matter how small the chips get, they still require energy to be made, maintained, and disposed of. Sigh, I'm a horrible person.

I was also reminded of my shameful generation which cares nothing of current events. Why? I don't know, internet maybe? Blogs, zines and snippets of facts that can be read quickly between twitter posts (which I take no part in, mind you) and facebook status updates, so as not to take up too much time of our important day. In high school, I hated the social science classes. And being so caught up in the drama of being an anguishing teenager that I never thought politics concerned me. And not to speak for the whole of my generation, but I believe the same was true for a good bit of my peers. Even today, most people concern themselves more with what's happening on their favorite celebrity twitter page then what's going on in the world. As for Americans in general, we are so geocentric in the sense that we believe America to be the center of everything. You know, maybe the internet's not to blame. Well, maybe for the downfall of printed newspapers and journals, but at least not for our lack of interest in current events. Our own country's to blame. We've become accustomed to being the center of it all, true or not, that we forget about everything else.

The digital age ain't all that it's cracked up to be. updated drawing

13 October 2009

I Can Hear Music

CDs I want:

Chevelle, Vena Sera
Cruiserweight, Big Bold Letters
Flyleaf, Flyleaf....um, apparently I already had it,....whoops, thanks bwada
Three Days Grace, One-X (Bought 12.28.09)
Apocolyptica, Worlds Collide (Bought tracks 2,6,7, & 8 12.28.09)
Regina Spektor
(500) Days of Summer
Mindless Self Indulgence, If (Bought 12.28.09)
Linkin Park
Mae

11 October 2009

10 October 2009

Sad Sam

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Sam the sad samurai got stuck in the rain

08 October 2009

True Love Has No Limits



“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.” 1 Corinthians 13:4


Where There is Love, Nothing is Missing.
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me.
I love you for that part of me you bring out.
- Elizabeth Barrett Browning

The magic words for a great relationship are, "I love you just the way you are."
- Jonathan Lockwood Huie

05 October 2009

Everything's Changing

I've been so busy lately, I haven't had the time to worry about the past....still, it seems as though nothing can keep the pain from rising to the surface eventually.



I went to the Leon Krier lecture at Goucher College this evening... autographed book #2 added to my library. I wish I had been exposed to Leon and his work prior to graduation, I would have had much better support for my arguments defending my work to my teachers, and my thesis would have made a hell of a lot more sense to me. He's a character, he adds just the right touch of humor to his theories, making it interesting and understandable.

On another note, I've taken it as my responsibility to look after the baby chipmunk living outside my door. It's possible the dead chipmunk I found on my back porch the other night was a parent of this lil guy-though it was small enough to have been a sibling- so I've devoted a few minutes each day to collecting the best acorns I can find and leaving them near their home. Nudge brought the poor thing into the house yesterday, cradled in her jaws. Luckily, she hadn't hurt it, I assume she meant for the killing of it to be a gift for me. Well. at least this chipmunk was smarter than the one she brought me a year or so ago, also still alive....this guy found his way outside, whereas I had to catch the first one with oven mits.

The drawings above are from work at SHA. It's been very encouraging to hear Seth's compliments towards my ability to render trees and my keen eye for relationships between objects. Even if he wont be using this drawing (I can understand he needs multiple drawings finished quickly and I just can not meet those needs, as of yet) I'm proud of my work, and humbled by it. I also think it's a little silly that he might have expected me to be a graduate with a Bachelor of Fine Arts and not be able to draw. Not that I find myself particularly spectacular, only that...hey...I spent 4 years in an art school. Why wouldn't I be able to draw something at least halfway decently?

03 October 2009

I Like It When You Do That

I like the way he plays with my hair when I'm sleeping...when I wake up, just barely enough, to feel his gentle fingers scratching my back. And then fall asleep, again, safely next to him. I love the rare moment when he holds me in a crowd. Generally not a fan of even the slightest public display of affection, he embraces me as if to protect me and to make it clear that I'm with him at the same time. I love when I see how tender and sweet he really is despite how tough he may try to appear.

I love it when you tell me how much you need me, even when I don't deserve to hear it.

I like it when you do that.

30 September 2009

I'm at a loss for words...

No Name

What the hell will it say upon my grave?
Here lies that son of a bitch not rich or famous

Ignoramus

Hey
No black graffiti says,
"I live" "am God" or "Save"
You can be sure there'll be no flowers or eternal flame

R.I.P. you no name














I hope I don't get in trouble for posting this....a project we're working on at SH

24 September 2009

September

Do you remember the 21st night of september?
Love was changing the minds of pretenders
While chasing the clouds away

Our hearts were ringing
In the key that our souls were singing.
As we danced in the night,
Remember how the stars stole the night away
-Earth, Wind & Fire



If fall colors weren't so beautiful, I'd hate them....just because they signify the coming of colder weather.

But the truth is, fall is beautiful, and the weather is too enjoyable to complain.

23 September 2009

I survived 21


I've survived 21 years....well....22 actually. Tomorrow marks the completion of my 22nd year, and my entry into the 23rd.

You know, there's always been an age I've waited for. Like I mentioned in a few posts prior, you cant wait until you're a teenager, then you can't wait to drive, then you can't wait to be 18, then it's 21.....well....now what?

What age do I have to look forward to? My power year? What year is that again? My 24th? or is it when I'm 24? Ugh....

I didn't even drink much for a 21 year old....

True Community

Networks, alas, are no substitute for true community.
Peter Katz


my thesis version of a csd/traditional diagram

22 September 2009

From Pissed to Pleasant

Nudge the cat goes from pissed that I wont let her outside, to contempt and snug in my arms.

Color Design project